Sometimes, despite trying, the tears come and seem like they will never stop. Putting one foot in front of the other everyday is hard, even though people don’t know it. People who have never mourned, or lost something precious, overlook it. The weight is so strong, and it is a burden, that we cannot ever put down. It is with us every day, like a rock tied to our shoes, weighing us down. Trying to look past, beyond, around, over, and through, it seems that the unseen is beyond my capacity.
If I were to utter a prayer, a plea, I would say: Please remove those obstacles in my path and help me to find a way to keep going. Please give me strength despite the circumstances. Let me know that there is more good than bad in the world and that, at another time, this will not hurt as much as it does now.
Putting one foot in front of the other every day takes more strength than people will ever understand or will ever have to think about. I cannot take it for granted. It is not merely routine; it takes effort, thought, planning, and a deep breath. Pushing off the brink of the unknown, like an explorer on a World expedition, I am using all my energy to take just one more step.