Whether it is because I am tired, or in pain, or tired of being in pain, I cannot be sure. Sometimes, things come out of my mouth that are too snarky or too negative. Then, because I obsess and have GAD and panic attacks, I worry about what I said for H O U R S. Then I feel guilty, shoot off more cortisol in the brain and glucose in the body…. Meanwhile the other person probably does not even give a sh*t because they don’t care about me to begin with and know how to brush off comments that they don’t care about.
I do not have that magic filter. Seeing and feeling things so much, I want to express the truth. It is so simple and right in front of me. It is too much pressure to be a nice person, a depressed person, and an anxious person all at the same time.
Do you say things and then regret them? Does it seem like your brain just ejected the thoughts as they occur?